12095040_10153576036552435_306685775999754435_oThe first email I read on Sunday, September 13, 2015 was the heart wrenching news that Scott Dinsmore, founder of Live Your Legend, was tragically killed in a natural accident while climbing Mount Kilimanjaro. I can’t even begin to comprehend what his wife is experiencing (here’s her touching post).

I’ve spent a lot of time reading the many blog posts and posts in the Facebook Tribute Group. Despite three weeks passing since reading that email I’m still in a state of shock and I begin to cry when random things remind me of him. One thing is certain, he has impacted people around the world and through this amazing community his legacy will continue on.

Death is no stranger in my life. I lost three people I loved in 2014 alone; two were suicides. Scott is not the first “internet friend” of mine who has died but he is the first who significantly impacted me and decisions I’ve made for my life.

Part of my struggle was if I should even feel grief for Scott passing when I had never met him in real life. I joined the community call that was held on September 23, 2015 and I realized that it is more than OK. The call also made me aware that I haven’t fully processed the grief of the two friends I lost through suicide last year because I buried myself in my work when the feelings came up.

As death often does, it caused me to reflect on my own wishes and how I want to be remembered after I’ve passed on.

The past two years have been incredibly challenging for me due to continued harassment from a woman who is cyberstalking me and trying to destroy my business.

I’ve slowly become a shadow of myself in an attempt to shield myself, friends and clients

There are so many things I want:

  • live fully and without the fear of harassment
  • be able to say yes to new bookkeeping clients
  • create time to train my team so we can take on more bookkeeping clients
  • live in all 50 states (this is something Scott inspired and I wish I had told him before he died)
  • develop passive income streams
  • inspire women to explore the possibilities that exist by becoming a virtual assistant
  • share my knowledge on tools that allow business owners to be more productive and efficient
  • prevent children from committing suicide as a result of cyberbullying
  • help change cyberstalking/cyberbullying laws so no one has to go through the nightmare I’ve went through the past two years
  • help people be safer online and what steps they can take if they find themselves being harassed online
  • do yoga and ballroom dance once a week (each one)
  • find a horse to lease so I can start riding again
  • learn how to meditate and do it daily

Nothing on this list is impossible and for the most part I know the exact steps I need to take to accomplish everything on the list. 

I’ve made the following commitments to myself and those in my network:

  • Today I signed up for The Meditation Habit from Wisdom Heart.
  • The adventure to live in all 50 states starts on October 21, 2015. I’ll be moving to Portland, OR first.
  • As part of the trek from Florida to Portland I’ll be meeting up with various “internet friends” who live in Atlanta and Kansas City.
  • Once in Portland I’ll be working closely with a colleague on adding even more content to my on-demand Become a Virtual Assistant course and to develop other courses (I really want to create a Quickbooks Online / Bookkeeping Course).
  • I’ve been working with someone to write my book to help others be safer online and what to do if they are being harassed. It will be published in March 2016.
  • I’ve started recording “how to” videos with resources to document online harassment.
  • Soon I’ll be doing videos and blog posts on some of the fantastic tools I use for myself (or clients) to increase productivity and efficiency.
  • I will fully get through the Small Business Bodyguard program that I purchased in early 2015 (Seriously, ever small business owner should get this!)

Undoubtedly I’m one of thousands of people who have made commitments to themselves (and others) as a result of Scott’s death. To do the work they love. To pursue dreams before it’s too late. To touch the lives of others. To create and nurture their communities. To leave a legacy behind.

I’d love to have you share your dreams and desires in the comments below.

And, if you’re not doing the work you love, spend the 18 minutes to watch this video from Scott and check out his free tools and paid courses.

Thank you, Scott, for inspiring me in so many ways. You are deeply missed.